Mindful Flaws

I always like to remain transparent with everyone I work with, students I connect with, friends and family. This week I had a coaching session, and I felt like I should offer my openness to you rather than just putting it in a journal somewhere.

When I look inside myself I see those flaws and wonder how they are effecting me or how they may be projecting out. 

Before the pandemic, I realized I was really just moving along with the tide. I had daily and weekly routines which consisted of running to one place to the next teaching and then coming home and just detaching from everything. The TV would be on, and maybe my husband would be in his lounge chair half asleep. I didn’t even realize how lost I was. I felt like I never had time, and felt that no one really was there to support me.

When we were forced to stay home, there was a major shift. Time seemed to be abundant, I was able to be present in my marriage and life in general and realized I really always did have the support of friends and family. Everything from connecting with family members on a group text to a few yoga teacher friends just checking in.

All of these beliefs I had were never flaws in my being. They were always there and I just needed a lesson to open up and make some space. I needed to remove that idea that it was  bad and just look in the mirror seeing my strengths.

So I feel that this coaching helped guide me straight. The anxiety of these thoughts might linger, but it’s ok. Let it hang, there is plenty of room inside.